the struggle

as you can probably glean from this and my many other blogs, i would like to think of myself as a non-violent person -- or, more accurately, a violent person trying very hard to be non-violent. following the teachings of jesus, spurned on by the examples of dr. king, nelson mandela, mother theresa, ghandi and others, i am active in my struggle for conflict resolution in a non-violent way.

i was sincerely depressed when i posted a response to a blog entry blasting the NRA for opposing the UN's call for the halt or 'regulation' of illegal weapons. i couldn't even argue myself out of my position opposing the UNs proposal. even refreshing the memory banks of ghandi and the non-violent struggle for freedom he led, i just couldn't support a global crackdown on the manufacture of 'illegal' weapons.

i suppose my faith is gone this morning. i have no trust in the governments of the world, and i do realize that my trust is not to be in governments but in god; so, i suppose, my trust in god is also gone this morning; so, too is my trust in myself. or perhaps its just a clear picture of where we are in today's reality ... i haven't decided.

reminds me of the seal song, "lost my faith" ... i suppose my whole point was that the tools of violence do not make us violent ... eliminating "illegal" weapons would only cover-up the fact that we are still just as violent as ever as if we continue to justify the manufacture of 'legal' weapons. yeah, its one of these days.

LOST MY FAITH
We both know
That the harder we try
Can't understand it
We're so caught up in the reasons why
Station to station
And we couldn't even say their names
I realized it
Was just a game
I had lost my faith
Long ago
I had lost my faith
Long ago

I can see
That if I stay close to your side
All of my pressures now
I know they will subside
If ever you need me
All you gotta do is fall
I hear you sayin'
That you got it all
I had lost my faith
Long ago
I had lost my faith
Long ago

A stranger so it seems
I lie here for you touch
But what I'd like to know
Is why do I want you so much
You say that's all the same
All through my life
I have
Waited for you
And
Have you waited too
are you feeling what I'm feeling
Ohhhh.... I
I had lost my faith
Long ago
I had lost my faith long ago
I had lost my faith
Long ago
I had lost my faith
Long ago
I lost my faith
I lost my faith
I lost my faith
Ohh love