the demons of inheritance

those umbilical demons we share with our source
masks our identity and steers our course.

but, we were free to come in and choose what we want.

and, we made our choice to receive those 'demonic' gifts:

the fire in our bellies
the purpose in our walk
the beat of our drum.

to divorce from the broken patterns of ancestral drums,
is a lesson in the self and the completed life.

the fearful fathers beat their chaotic lines,
as the mothers' silence amplify their war drum's call.

the drum of the child must lift its voice, louder and louder until it breaks free to soar leaving behind the nonsensical ones.

living with their demons is a choice,
holding them close and giving them voice,
or letting them go as your's rejoice.

leaving behind the mystery and the lie that took you by the hand
and said 'you can fly, but i can't,' as their love is imprisoned by the demon 'i can't.'

i now face the angel of my womb as she echos the mantra of the demons of our inheritance as she simply asks 'why not?'

peace & harmony,
elaine
'freedom must be exercised to stay in shape!'
26.8.05 15:19 p.m. pst
28.8.05 4:31 a.m. pst

... money, the root of ...

- photo by www.norinevphotography.com, art :K:•: and treatment :K::: by elaine

evil? really. i thought the source was love.

if love is the seed, how can the root that grows from it be evil?

money is a tool of choice.

.... a circle for my dad ....
its called 'war'
first it was white ....
then it was fire engine red...with the words "fear," "kill" and "covet" ... then i affixed The Flag.

siobahn found The Flag ... she found it on the ground the day after a 'send your son to die for us / send my son to die for us' rally in echo park, california ... because a lot of mothers' sons and daughters were trapped by their integrity to an ideal that had long since deceived and destroyed, along side the others who were there for their various reasons or, perhaps, excuses.

when the president said 'we fight this war to protect the american way of life', i tried to burn The Flag. The Flag melted instead ... the-petroleum-fabric-made-in-china flag just could not be burned. but then again, nor can ... 'me here on planet earth, being one of the people of the united states of america, in order to form a more perfect union, establish justice, etc.,' even when it is stolen from those who honored it most and gave their lives for that freedom.

then chris' sister died and i painted it Carbon Black ... "Carbon Black" is the golden color. ashes is what an innocent life can be reduced to under the weight of greed.

it was Carbon Black for a long time.

one day, for no particular reason i can recall (except the general relation of that particular shade of green and it was spring time) . . . well, i took the green, the color of the south, renewal, but mostly because it is the color of money, and wrote the words 'love', 'give' and 'grace' . . . which green then flowed from the e's in all the words .... many reasons why, but mostly because it is the soul vibration ('e' vibrates to 5 representing pyramidal power, freedom, change, dimensional movements) of the word 'me'; and, more personally, i have it at the beginning and the end of my name, 'elaine'.

the three primary colors and their palette complete the thought with all their references and symbolism. one of my earlier works where imperfections are not noticeable when you are staring at it too closely .....

so, in a nutshell, the story of the evolution of this piece ... 'money a tool of the root' is what i call this treatment of this piece of art originally entitled 'fear•love : kill • grace : covet • give :K:•:'.

music: 'limited expression' by mark london sims ... in particular, track 5, 'money first' and track 9, 'music should change instanteously'

peace & harmony,
elaine
'freedom must be exercised to stay in shape!'

... are you listening ?

... which side were you on?

you remember the war before the last one don't you?

you don't? talk to a vietnam vet about what is happening in the middle east ...

there were '4 dead in ohio'

there are '3 dead in nepal'

do there need to be more?

or is it simply a future shock that we still cannot feel?

... 8 more dead american soldiers this weekend ....

can we feel it yet?

as we sow death, so shall we reap it

in this a war crafted by deceit and fueled by fear.

it can end just as quickly as it started

'just do it'

... there once was a man named 'saul' ...

... there once was another man named 'king george' ...

does it matter?

to those of us who are connected, it does.

it is time for the war to end ...

how hurt to we have to be to put down our weapons and walk away?

how simple would it be to simply do that?

what would happen ... really?

a civil war? a power shift? a violent conflict amongs iraqis?

its happening any way ... what if we just tried sending in the peace corps instead of the marine corps?

just an idea, in case you were listening ...

peace & harmony,
elaine
'freedom must be exercised to stay in shape!'

...12.25.2001...

(for siobahn)
two, duality of our nature
our image reflecting the perfection of god
the third year of being and life
lifting higher yet the essence of our existence
stepping along the journey toward your destiny
integrating new discoveries from within and without
reconciling with your source, identity and truth
three, triangulation strength
framing with its completeness and perfection of design
receive with freedom its power and structure
a third dimension of discernment, intuition and beauty
equal in strength, import and focus
for truth to flow, reconciling your natural duality
bringing peace and harmony to innate conflicts
transforming impatience, frustration and discord
through the breath of an eternal god
expressing your mind, body and soul
aligning your being with infinitude and impossibilities
to receive with anticipation, excitement, peace and love
to embrace the beauty of expansion
(tiferet of chesed)

music: 'doesn't remind me' by audioslave

... as the pope commandeth ...

music
'live like you were dying,' tim mcgraw
'things that make you go "hmmmmm"' (i think c&c music factory did that one!)
"shine' by dj sparks (you may know her as deanna johnson
from Rock Star:INXS)

Yahoo! News Headline: Pope Reminds Jesuits of Vow of Obedience

i must admit, when i first saw this headline, i was excited until the darkness creeped in when i read this: "Pope Benedict XVI reminded members of the Jesuit religious order Saturday of their vow of obedience to the pontiff and said their main job was to interact with modern culture."

.....hmmmmmmmmm, now that's an interesting point of view ....

i thought we got the 10 commandments already. do we really need to take commands from another human to live a godly life? i think god spelled out how to live a godly life quite clearly ... and if god didn't do it so clearly with moses, jesus most definitely made it clear who we are to be obedient to ...

who's commandments are you following?

... don't get me wrong, the pope might be an amazing man, maybe the reason this made me queasy is i thought our main job was to 'love one another' ... 'interact with modern culture' ... does that 20' video screens and pop sequenced worship ... or does that mean going to nepal and helping the people there who were assignated by their own king?

......hmmm would like to see a transcript or more info on what he actually said ....

peace & harmony,
elaine
'freedom must be exercised to stay in shape!'

god on immigration ...

... last night i read a forum on cbn.com ...
i never thought of the immigration issue in context of my spiritual walk ...
i never got past the BLATENT RACISM and FEAR MONGERING
that the legislation is based on ... i guess i didn't need god's help on it ...
the human part of me just crept out and took over.

if you think GOD cares about an arbitrary line in the dirt drawn by men with their pens that signed treaties that have never been honored ... you need to get back to the basics of christianity ...

none of this belongs to anyone, we are all guests on this planet ...
we immigrated to earth the day god gave us life ...
our brothers and sisters from another 'nation state' are no less our brothers or sisters and no less entitled or unentitled to come and go anywhere on the planet as you and or i am ...

unless of course, you consider how we don't like to let sovereign nations handle their own business and use force to exert our will over theirs ... but i digress ...

so ... go and twist your scriptures to mold to whatever position you choose to take on the subject ...

looking at it from god's eyes, i suppose its just human folly ... some thing to distract us from our purpose ... to love one another ....

peace & harmony,
elaine
'freedom must be recognized to stay in shape!'
***APRIL 22, 2006 IS EARTHDAY ... CHERISH THE EARTH GOD CREATED ESPECIALLY ON THAT DAY! ***

yahoo! news ... kill ... lies ... war ... thank god for soccer!

yahoo! news today, whatever time it is ... headline "Victims' Kin Testify for Moussaoui's Life" that got me ... i got this far and began to just see the darkness creeping in:

"Debra Burlingame, whose brother Charles was pilot of the hijacked plane crashed into the Pentagon, said she found it "deeply disturbing ... to hear that any 9/11 family member would take the witness stand on behalf of Zacarias Moussaoui. ... The fear that execution at our hands will martyr Moussaoui shows a misunderstanding of the jihadi cult of death.""

i find it deeply disturbing that anyone should criticize anyone trying to protect another being's right to life in the united states of america.

i find it equally disturbing that our christian leaders can call for the assignation of another country's leader and not be in prison. but, that's me.

justice is not blind in america it is being used by the christians to create the 'perfect' world ... according to them. i don't get it, are we all made in the image of god, or just those that go to church on sunday.

to think this man has a chance at a fair trial is almost as comical as when we thought we gave timothy mcveigh a fair trial. we are too emotionally impotent and filled with good, old christian judgment and condemnation to have blind justice in this day and time. ...soon, perhaps

but i can be impatient ... so until then, i write my senator, i email cbn, i pray for mr. bush to meet saul on that road in the bright light, and i work on changing me.

thank god for soccer and the fact that it was yahoo! news headline worthy to report on the FIAA standings of our national soccer team (the magic of peter uberroth) ... except someone PLEASE explain how the us can lose a game and have our rank go UP?

peace & harmony,
elaine
'freedom must be exercised to stay in shape!'

"i am" the resurrection

easter

the resurrection or the re-surrection ?
what's a 'surrection' anyway?
i know what an insurrection is
i think i know what resurrection is
but ... just what is a surrection .... source, that's what it is.
"surgere" is what exactly? more research needed!

so, april SUCKS!
so much death it is CRAZY!
iraq is off the hook ...
people are just killing one another left and right ... why?
why do i care? because i may not wake up tomorrow ... and if i don't ....

my baby girl has to see all this darkness have hope ... here's my hope:

that she is as bright and happy as possible ... now, today. (...and if mommy's happy, everyone's happy!)

what about tomorrow, its a nice thought, but today is manifest what you see is what you create. (perhaps the source my new affinity for the WYSIWYG programs!)

ask yourself, constantly, 'how can it get any better than this?' and start answering that question and making the changes to make it so.

the jesus idol ... his is not the way, "i am" is the way.
jesus is not the truth, "i am" is the truth.
jesus is not the life, "i am" is the life.

live "i am" and death comes and goes quickly and quietly like a thief in the night ... changing you to live more like "i am" ... waking up to a new day that is our's to create.

how can it get any better than this? ... my prayer, mr. bush is inspired by a man who's name used to be 'saul' this easter season.

peace & harmony,
elaine
'freedom must be exercised to stay in shape!'
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